Elmer and I have been married going on 44 years!! When he was diagnosed for stage 4 prostate cancer 18 months ago, we had a " We got this" attitude. He did traditional treatments and herbal, and dog wormer, and diets. He said from day one he draws the line with Chemo. If it came to that, well he would be done. He was doing so well it seemed and we almost forgot he was sick some days. Then things changed. Cancer found a way to thrive in the face of all we were doing. Only 18 months and my husband is under Hospice care. We don't know how long he has, but we are all trying to make the best of it and in the midst of me "being strong". Me not crying in front of anyone, me keeping busy so I don't have to come face to face with out new reality, I feel lost. I am lost. My flesh has forgotten or maybe turned its back on the truth that God, himself hold me close.
When we give our life to Christ, we are told we are found. We now are in the safe haven of his arms, for eternity. This gives us peace. Hope. And hopefully direction. But sometimes life tosses you about and makes you feel lost in it. This is not our soul which God himself holds close. This is our flesh, forgetting God, himself hold us close.
Elmer and I have been married going on 44 years!! When he was diagnosed for stage 4 prostate cancer 18 months ago, we had a " We got this" attitude. He did traditional treatments and herbal, and dog wormer, and diets. He said from day one he draws the line with Chemo. If it came to that, well he would be done. He was doing so well it seemed and we almost forgot he was sick some days. Then things changed. Cancer found a way to thrive in the face of all we were doing. Only 18 months and my husband is under Hospice care. We don't know how long he has, but we are all trying to make the best of it and in the midst of me "being strong". Me not crying in front of anyone, me keeping busy so I don't have to come face to face with out new reality, I feel lost. I am lost. My flesh has forgotten or maybe turned its back on the truth that God, himself hold me close.
0 Comments
Leave a Reply. |
Archives
March 2024
Categories |