I wanted so much to reach her....to share and open her eyes and heart to what God has in store for her...After a good talk I was encouraged..I prayed and and thanked God for sending me this mission... for trusting me with her....I was light hearted and up lifted...then something happened... I truly felt Satan playing tug a war with me..for her... I felt his presence..I felt his pull...and I felt my failure...Oh how my heart aches even now...how my tears fell and still fill my eyes when I think of how it all went...just when I felt a connection..a desire in her..a wanting...Satan pulls at her...screams in her head she is not good enough..she is not worthy...and her mood changes...the spark in her eye is gone..her hope squashed. I cried and begged God to forgive me..for failing him..for failing her...for my weakness for my cowardliness...All I can hope for..pray for is another opportunity...a chance to fight Satan and win...a chance to win her for the Glory...a chance to embrace what God truly can do....Today's failure will be Gods victory for I know He will never fail...even when we do..He will claim His victory...this I have to look forward to..
Look, he is coming with the clouds
and every eye will see him
even those who pieced him
and all the people of the earth will mourn
because of him..so shall it be Amen